Everyone tells me I am whimsical by nature.
But I find that all my interests, the things I read, the things I watch…
are all the dark and disturbing aspects of human nature.
I like awkwardness, uncomfortableness,
the feeling of still and thick air,
the sound of static.
Yet, still, I have this bounce in my step.
I roll on the balls of my feet quite often
and I like to twirl and twist through the day.
I laugh at the most mundane of things
and smile at the sky.
So I have to question,
am I actually whimsical or do I just want to be?
am I in a love affair with darkness,
or is it that which lies deepest within me?
Or,
is it just a fascination with something that is so far from myself?
I might never know if it is light or darkness at the core of my soul..
